dear diary?
dear diary….
I am at work now, as always. Have done some stuffs since morning, so i decided to spend sometime writing here. I am now starting to enter in the phase of my life I called ” emptiness”. Sounds so sad, right? Oh well, not exactly. It’s more of a period when i have a lot of doubts and confusions that i feel so empty. Does it make sense to you? I used to be in this kind of period before. Like, for example, when i just graduated and don’t know what to do with my life. Or….when I am in the verge of breaking down on my relationship. Now, I started to get that feeling…emptiness…. again. Not sure if it is or not though. But I have learned something from those experiences that put me into that state. I have learned that ‘time’ and only ‘time’ will resolve everything. It will eventually makes everything better. No matter how long it takes, in the end, everything will be all good. Really! I mean it. At first I thought that no matter how long it takes, i will never going to be able to get out of the feeling i felt that those particular moment. But yeah, time really does heals all things. As for me to get out of these states, they took me different amount of time depending on how much importance you give to each particular matter.
Right now, i don’t really know what to do. Not what to do with my life, but it is more of what to do about my feelings. You know what i mean. However, i am telling myself to just let it be since i know that in the end….time will tell ! 😀 Quite exciting, actually. If you really think about it, it’s like waiting for a surprise to happen which you don’t know exactly when and how things will turn out.
ttyl diary? (am i getting mad pretending to talk to something that i know can’t hear or gimme any reply???? oO haha!)
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ❤
Ploy!
some foto updates. September 15, 2009
Since I can’t online on facebook at work, I will upload the pictures here instead.
satisfaction.
I’m pretty satisfy with my life as a whole lately. I don’t know…but I’m just feeling happy, plain happy. Not extra happy or anything like that, but just to a certain level. Work is fun, or at least it gives me the reason to wake up every morning and allow me to apprecite the weekends much much more. I guess everything has its own advantages, even the worst. Hope you know what I mean.
Satisfaction…hmm….what should I say about it. I think satisfaction is the perfect word to use when you want to explain something that doesn’t have to be perfect but you still apprecite and feeling happy about it. It’s true, you know. Nothing has to be perfect, actually, nothing is! You just got to find a way to deal with it and live with it. That’s the best way to live your life, I think. At least for me.
In the matter of relationships, sometimes I believe that as long as both parties are satisfied, then it will last. If not, then it’s better off saying bye-bye. There’s nothing right or wrong about it, just whether or not both (not one of them) are satisfy with where they are standing together. That’s all there is to it. Asking myself whether I am satisfied? I don’t really know. Honestly. Maybe I am already getting used to it. People get used to stuffs they have to deal with all the time, you know. Is it good or bad? Hard to say.
I am now reading a magazine ‘a day’. On the quotation page now. Here are my favorites.
” we can’t plan life. all we can do is be available for it.”
“all change is not growth, as all movement is not forward.”
“to avoid situations in which you might make mistakes may be the biggest mistake of all.”
” what we play is life.”
Bye for now. take care!
been a long time September 1, 2009
Hey there! It’s been a long long time since I wrote here. Now I’m feeling a little bit confused right now actually. So I wouldn’t make any much sense here…I just feel the need of writing something, anything. So yeah, right now I’m at the office, supposed to be working, but……. Anyways, I just need to make up my mind and stick to it….probably. I am sure I will be fine no matter which way I chose, but maybe I will regret some of the things I did or chose. But I will be fine. Better continue working now. Will be back with some updates later.
Ploy
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